Baby Matters~~!!

I always wanted kids you know....Everytime i go somewhere and when i see those little tykes scrambling around, i will always feel a wave of tenderness and love for them....and i would always tell myself that someday i will have one of mine to play with, to hug, to kiss and to be with...

i got my wish as of 24th july 2008...my little dylan entered into this world, and i remembered clearly how much i panicked when i pushed the him out and there was no crying sound...i was frantically asking Ooi why there was no sound and then looking at the doctor as the nurses all carried my little dylan away from her to put her on the heated cot to clean her...my dr. was like "cos they have not cleared his airways yet darling"...and as soon as i heard that, a sharp and loud cry filled up the delivery room..it was the first sound and cry of my baby boy...it was only then i breathed a sigh of relief and realised that "I am now a mummy!!"

Ah...how i love him..looking at him aches my heart....he was just so tiny...and he looked so innocent and helpless..i could see him kicking and waving his hands everywhere as the nurses cleaned him up...

he's been home now with us and is now more than 2 weeks old, fast approaching 3-week...eekk..the challenges....i remembered how awkward i felt carrying him...and feeling a little disappointed at myself for not having that instant maternal instinct or skill...feeding him is still challenging...my dylan boy would shout so loud that i am kinda worried my neighbours might soon move away...kekeke....sometimes, when we are trying to get the milk to him, he would cry til there's no sound....(now that really scares me) ...and changing his diapers...phew....even the nurses in the hospital commented wat a strong little man dylan is...his legs can really kick..!!

it's been a rollercoaster ride of feelings for me since the day dylan was born...one moment you love him, want to care for him..but the next moment, you are scared of him and want to run away and cry...it is indeed true that it's not easy being a mum... i remember reading a quote not so long ago which is truly applicable which goes something like this "when a child is born, a mother is also born. for a woman is not a mother until a child is born"

This is going to be a long journey for both me and ooi...He's been so great during this whole process...so willing to learn and to play such an active role in both dylan and my lives..Dylan and I still got a lot we can also learn from Ooi.. :) i am glad my son has Ooi as his father..He'll be a great influence to our son's life...ahh...at the end of the day, despite all the difficulties i am having with dylan, i am glad thath Ooi is here with me all the way....so continue to pray for my little family, to those dear frens who are reading this....pray that our dylan will be an easy baby to take care of...and that both me and Ooi will be good parents for this fine, young man :)