What would you do~~???

Have you ever been in a situation where you wish you had more space? but yet at the same time, ironically, wish you had more ppl to care for you? The questions sound contradictory..i know....you must be wondering...ok..so you wanna be alone or not then?? hahaha...

This is how i felt for the past 2 weeks....since having baby dylan... family members are the worst...they blot us new mothers out of the picture completely and put their focus on the baby completely...while i understand the baby is the star now, but it would certainly be nice if they could at least ask me once how i was doing...

being in this predicament, has been emotionally whelming for me...i missed my own mum and dad so much tat my heart aches so badly and tears would keep coming out of me....i wish they weren't so far from me....i am indeed tempted to go back to Brunei to stay with them...but i have an obligation to my husband and his family to be here instead...

u must be wondering how bad the situation can be...hahaha..trust me...bad enuff for me to think i can make my life into an interesting, 'addictive to viewers' kind of drama or movie on tv... moreover, i have these ppl pushing themselves into my baby dylan's life...i can understand they want to have an active part in moulding his character...however, they have had their chances being mums to several of their own children...shouldn't baby dylan be mine and ooi's to mould and to shape? He's after all my baby boy...my first born....

i was just telling ooi and my sister that i think i may currently be suffering from post-natal depression..they are the 2 closest persons i have right now with me..to give me the mental support i need...i've been praying hard...for more strength and wisdom and it pains me to know that i'm weakening as time pass by...feeling more n more irritated with all these intrusive ppl...am i supposed to be grateful that they are all veree excited and concerned over my baby boy? i really dunno...i know i m not jealous of my baby boy..becos i wan nothing but the best for him...i just wan to spend as much time as i can with him during this maternity leave of mine....so, wat would you do??