It's Party Time~!!

How quickly time flies....Both me and Ooi have already spent one month of waking up every 2-3 hours in the middle of night feeding baby dylan, changing his diapers, trying to calm down his almost incosolable crying...it's been and still is challenging to both of us ...and fortunately, this saturday both ooi and i will be having baby dylan's full moon celebration at our humble little abode....we will be having all our closest friends and relatives here with us then....but more importantly, i can't wait to wash my hair!!!! Finally!!!

My parents will also be coming down from Brunei to join us during this joyous event...even my aunt from Singapore is also coming down...Frankly speaking, I am ecstatic abt this weekend...all my loved ones will be with me!!! hehehe...i have my parents, my sister, my husband and my baby...ah..... total bliss :)

now gotta plan....plan wat to wear for both me and baby dylan..haha...i got to wear something to conceal my still-bulging stomach....baby dylan's got to wear something to show off his handsome-ness..hahaha....

can't wait to post some photos later abt this wonderful event...stay posted :)

What would you do~~???

Have you ever been in a situation where you wish you had more space? but yet at the same time, ironically, wish you had more ppl to care for you? The questions sound contradictory..i know....you must be wondering...ok..so you wanna be alone or not then?? hahaha...

This is how i felt for the past 2 weeks....since having baby dylan... family members are the worst...they blot us new mothers out of the picture completely and put their focus on the baby completely...while i understand the baby is the star now, but it would certainly be nice if they could at least ask me once how i was doing...

being in this predicament, has been emotionally whelming for me...i missed my own mum and dad so much tat my heart aches so badly and tears would keep coming out of me....i wish they weren't so far from me....i am indeed tempted to go back to Brunei to stay with them...but i have an obligation to my husband and his family to be here instead...

u must be wondering how bad the situation can be...hahaha..trust me...bad enuff for me to think i can make my life into an interesting, 'addictive to viewers' kind of drama or movie on tv... moreover, i have these ppl pushing themselves into my baby dylan's life...i can understand they want to have an active part in moulding his character...however, they have had their chances being mums to several of their own children...shouldn't baby dylan be mine and ooi's to mould and to shape? He's after all my baby boy...my first born....

i was just telling ooi and my sister that i think i may currently be suffering from post-natal depression..they are the 2 closest persons i have right now with me..to give me the mental support i need...i've been praying hard...for more strength and wisdom and it pains me to know that i'm weakening as time pass by...feeling more n more irritated with all these intrusive ppl...am i supposed to be grateful that they are all veree excited and concerned over my baby boy? i really dunno...i know i m not jealous of my baby boy..becos i wan nothing but the best for him...i just wan to spend as much time as i can with him during this maternity leave of mine....so, wat would you do??

Baby Matters~~!!

I always wanted kids you know....Everytime i go somewhere and when i see those little tykes scrambling around, i will always feel a wave of tenderness and love for them....and i would always tell myself that someday i will have one of mine to play with, to hug, to kiss and to be with...

i got my wish as of 24th july 2008...my little dylan entered into this world, and i remembered clearly how much i panicked when i pushed the him out and there was no crying sound...i was frantically asking Ooi why there was no sound and then looking at the doctor as the nurses all carried my little dylan away from her to put her on the heated cot to clean her...my dr. was like "cos they have not cleared his airways yet darling"...and as soon as i heard that, a sharp and loud cry filled up the delivery room..it was the first sound and cry of my baby boy...it was only then i breathed a sigh of relief and realised that "I am now a mummy!!"

Ah...how i love him..looking at him aches my heart....he was just so tiny...and he looked so innocent and helpless..i could see him kicking and waving his hands everywhere as the nurses cleaned him up...

he's been home now with us and is now more than 2 weeks old, fast approaching 3-week...eekk..the challenges....i remembered how awkward i felt carrying him...and feeling a little disappointed at myself for not having that instant maternal instinct or skill...feeding him is still challenging...my dylan boy would shout so loud that i am kinda worried my neighbours might soon move away...kekeke....sometimes, when we are trying to get the milk to him, he would cry til there's no sound....(now that really scares me) ...and changing his diapers...phew....even the nurses in the hospital commented wat a strong little man dylan is...his legs can really kick..!!

it's been a rollercoaster ride of feelings for me since the day dylan was born...one moment you love him, want to care for him..but the next moment, you are scared of him and want to run away and cry...it is indeed true that it's not easy being a mum... i remember reading a quote not so long ago which is truly applicable which goes something like this "when a child is born, a mother is also born. for a woman is not a mother until a child is born"

This is going to be a long journey for both me and ooi...He's been so great during this whole process...so willing to learn and to play such an active role in both dylan and my lives..Dylan and I still got a lot we can also learn from Ooi.. :) i am glad my son has Ooi as his father..He'll be a great influence to our son's life...ahh...at the end of the day, despite all the difficulties i am having with dylan, i am glad thath Ooi is here with me all the way....so continue to pray for my little family, to those dear frens who are reading this....pray that our dylan will be an easy baby to take care of...and that both me and Ooi will be good parents for this fine, young man :)

I am a Mummy Now~!!

hi hi...

I'm back...haha...i can finally update my blog now that i am under my 60-days maternity leave...
yup...i am now a mummy to a cheeky little boy...my baby Dylan...

Behold, this is my baby boy...hehehe...he's now slightly more than 2 weeks old but would you just look at him...heheh..full of playful and cheeky facial expressions.. :) i love him so much!!!

but it had not been an easy journey...i had a pretty traumatic episode during the delivery..i was not able to really push him out and the doctor had to use a ventouse to suck him out...so poor baby dylan had to be monitored for a few days in the hospital and was also put on drip...poor baby...and when he came back home, he was readmitted again in the hospital for another 2 days due to jaundice...

as for me...i was not only tired but had quite a bit of stitching done on me...could not sit properly even til now....but at least its bearable now :)

as for other problems (sigh), confinement ladies...there are those who are good and those who are alright ..and then (with my kind of luck) there are those who are a real pain in the a**. Sigh...a word of advice to anyone out there who is expecting or who intends to have a child in the future..."Never hire your own relative as your confinement lady"...not only am i paying my aunt a market price but i have to listen to her endless bouts of complaints...no exaggerations here at all..from the day she arrived...my God...that mouth of hers...she complained abt the house, the frying wok, the plates in my house, the maid, the baby clothes, the bath tub, the food, etc etc etc...to make matters worse, she's been cooking me wrong food...aiks....pls take this word of advice dear expectant mothers out there....besides spinach or broccoli, pls do not take other kinds of vegetables during your confinement period...it'll give you tons of wind and constipation problems...especially if you have a sensitive stomach...my aunt was too ignorant to pay heed to this despite my mum's endless advice...now i am having major stomach discomforts daily.

But praise God..because during this whirlwind of problems, there is my Ooi who has been consistently by my side...listening to me release my daily stress....and also playing an active father role by feeding him in the middle of the night...changing diapers..rocking him to sleep, heating up the milk, cleaning the bottles, etc...hehehe...and then he'll get the maid to look after the baby for a while and sneak me out of the house once in a while so tat i can have a breather....ah......

God's been good to me..blessing me with baby Dylan and my ooi...I'll readily admit that I have not been easy to be around with recently due to the stress i am having with many things..in fact, i finally understand what post-natal depression is all about...but I believe very soon, I'll be better and be a even better mom and wife to my 2 men... :) Parenthood....there's no backing out now...hahaha